It has been on my mind so...

Here are a few updates.

First, to one of thee best chuckles I've had in a while. I needed it. I am so sick of everyone calling me with the same dumb drama that is centuries old.

Seriously, if the Bible teaches you nothing else it will show you that the same ish going on today is the same ish that has been going on for thousands of years. Men and women cheat in and out of the bedroom, pedophiles, rapists, murders, liars and theives always abound and there are only a few honest folk around. And everyone who ain't honest is always mad at the honest folk. *shrug* That's what I got out of it anyway. Among other things of course.

But back to my chuckle, my FB pal Meme called me yesterday with something new that gave me the giggles even after I got off the phone. She has met this guy who she likes. The only problem she can find is that whenever he starts talking about his job she wants to fall asleep. LOL She gave me an example that with my highly imaginative mind gave me a good laugh. She said they were out to dinner and all was fine with the general chit chat until...he started talking about his job. LOL To make matters worse she ASKED him about his job hoping that since she wasn't tired that the inevitable wouldn't happen. LOL But it did. I just had this picture of her sitting at the table nodding out on his conversation LOL. Poor Meme! lol I hope she works it out cuz she does like the man. I've never been or known anyone to be in that situation. It was a refreshing new problem.

Normal BS: I know I probably shouldn't care. I probably wouldn't with all the other drama going on if there wasn't a child caught up in this mess but...*smh* My coworker and her husband are back together. He came back with bills in tow that he didn't have when he left her. So she is running around tired and haggard looking eating oodles of noodles wondering where their next meal is coming from.  He came back to her with defaulted credit cards and 3 pay day loans in tow. So she has been using her salary to carry the household along with paying his car note and insurance. *slow blink twice*

Meanwhile, she has a ten year old caught up in this mess. *sigh* She was doing so well without him. Then to top it off, her car gets towed and sold at auction for unpaid parking tickets. Leaving them with one car. Then a few weeks later his car gets TOTALED! Yikes! Luckily, they have gap insurance so that paid off his car.

However, when they go to buy another car because he needs it to get to and from work, she mind you is on the bus, he wants a Mercedes. *rapid fire blinking* And he gets mad because the dealership won't finance one for him with his credit. Ok...she makes more than him at 40k+/year. Why in thee hayle does he think he can afford a Mercedes?

Now, the dealership can put them in a car. I forget what kind but it was relatively new and a nice vehicle. He turned his nose up at it. Coworker said fine. Honey, how about I buy the car and you drive it for the next 6 months and then we can try to get you what you want at that time. He pouts and says he thinks they should both wait 6 months then try to buy TWO cars. One of them being a Mercedes on her $40k+/year salary.

I almost bit my tongue in half. *smh* Nevermind how is he going to get back and forth to work. Or how her child is going to get to school. Let's just wait. Now mind you they do not live in Bmore City or even Bmore County for that matter. They are far off the beaten track. She is taking a commuter bus to work and ish. *smh*

But what really got me was the day she came in here talking about she didn't have any food in the house or money to buy any. Then a neighbor gave them some food from their job. *side eye* How are you going to be foodless with a child and worried about your spouse wanting a luxury car?

iCan't! I'll be single for life first.

Next, my niece filed for divorce. Oh that heffa is shady! She rifled through her husbands financials trying to see if he was hiding any money before she left him. Her momma said she is seeing someone already. She is trying to get full custody of the son and keeping him from his father. She doing a bunch of ish that might have me and the rest of the family on the news in front of her house crying. *smh* Can't tell her ish either cuz she just knows it all. I just hope she got good life insurance cuz I ain't paying for her funeral. Her azz will be in Potter's field. That is all.

Normal job bs. Nothing new there.

OH! My old e-crush friended me on FB. I know I said I was gonna tell him who I am but I decided against it. He has moved on and has a new love in his life and he's happy. He said one day that he had found peace with her.

Wow!

So, I won't be disturbing that peace. I'm happy for them both. We are what we should have been all along, e-buddies and it is all good.

Other than that God is good and the world keeps turning. Though sometimes I do want to get off the planet. *chuckle*

One more thing about my old e-crush...

So, I finally got a FB page. I am convinced FB is the devil or of him anyway. *chuckle* Since all the people I follow also follow my old e-crush FB keeps suggesting I friend him! Damn you FB! *shakes fist at minimized FB screen*

I, of course, wouldn't dare approach him. If, however, he approaches me I'll be sure to let him know who he is friending and leave it up to him. *smh chuckling*

I seriously chuckle every time I get that suggestion. Anyway, back to the salt mines.

My ex-e-crush formerly know as My Obsession

*chuckle*

How fickle is woman? Or anyone really. Just a real quick note. I saw this guy, right here in Baltimore that looks so much like my ex-e-crush that they could be twins or at the very least brothers. *deep satisfying sigh* I see him on the train in the evening.

Now, according to the ring on the third finger of his left hand he is married but he flirts with his eyes. *smirk* And he is the only one flirting. I am not opening the door to such nonsense but it is nice to note that there is another one who is my 'type' I guess is the word out there. So if there are two, then just maybe there are 3 or more. *hopeful bounce*

*happy sigh* Life is good.

My Obsession

I'm gonna make this quick cuz I just want to say it and move on.  I've been thinking about a lot of stuff since last I stopped by here. Still ruminating on MB3.  A lot of stuff going on in my life right now that's got me thinking about my life choices. No. Seriously. I got about 10 posts coming.

I like this whole blog thing believe it or not. And I wouldn't have believed it. I thought my little blurb about this blog being my therapy was a joke. I guess the joke is on me. I am actually working out some stuff in my head.

Baby steps. Baby steps.

Anyway, I wanted to say, I still miss My Obsession...just not as much.  Or it doesn't sting as much. He and I actually seem to frequent quite a few of the same blog sites. Go figure *shrug* great minds I guess. Anyway, on one he wrote that he had found someone that was making him really happy.

*sad frown*

I miss him but I'm happy for him, too.  Seeing that took away some of the sting of missing him.  I don't know if that makes sense or if that's even what I'm feeling.  I just know I was having a sadness within me about him and now, not so much sadness. The sadness came with a bit of sting and the sting is almost gone. I guess I just miss our friendship but really he doesn't have time anyway.

And I really am happy for him. *frown turns upside down* Now...back to working on my crazy azz. *chuckle*

*sits here shaking head at monitor as I contemplate lunch*

Just Randomness, Again...

Well as you can see I did get dug out and got back to work. Been busy as a one armed paper hanger since we got back to work. *lol* The people in non-snowed in areas were not impressed with the fact that we were snowed in and unable to get to work. Oh well. It was what it was. Getting caught up. Jeez! Office shuts down for one week and people act like it was the end of their world. Puh-lease. They are just fine.

I haven’t heard a peep from My Obsession about whether he liked the stories or not. I will take it that he doesn’t. I guess I won’t post anymore online. Yeah, he still gets online from time to time. Like I said, I have been stopping by my old stomping ground online. He’s there just not often. So it isn’t too weird. Funny, the moment I figured out he must not like the stories my muse spoke to me and I saw how to turn it into a love story LMAO! Laws! I miss the days when my stories were all short stories. Everything turns into a novel now. *sigh*

Such is life. I ain’t complaining. It keeps me busy and out of trouble.

What trouble? Well, first of all that guy is still calling. About once a week now. *smh* I am not all that. He’s not a bad looking dude. He’ll find someone new to bug come the spring hopefully. She has my condolences. *chuckle*

Past couple weeks have been really stressful. I don’t know what is going on with people. Everyone just seems more stressed than usual. We are getting more changes every day. Just after the storm we got yet one more new computer system. I already knew this ish wasn’t gonna work after the other two systems effed up everything from accounts payables to payroll. So I already knew to back up all my work TWO TIMES.

Monday morning when we got in I pulled up the files I normally work from on the new server. *chuckle* Half of them were missing and the ones that were there hadn’t been updated since June 2009. Um. No. I work in these files daily and had added new ones.

Pulled out one of my back ups and went to work. Meanwhile…there were people walking around fussing and cussing. One chick had tears in her eyes cuz she didn’t understand how they effed up her files.

CONFUSED FACE.

OH REALLY? You don’t know? *smh* People really expected things to go off without a hitch. Chile after they shorted my paycheck, paid dead people and lost the top execs paychecks I knew not to expect perfection. As a friend of mine still in IT likes to say: There are A, B, & C students in every profession. IT is no different. We got some A students on the job in IT. But we got some B & C students, too.

I am in the process of making a new friend. That’s cool. Actually a few of them. There’s Hellokittyslut, link to her blog over to your right, and a few cool chicks on BA. BA is planning a meet a greet next year at Mardi Gras. Getting my chicks together to go with. I am not going all the way to New Orleans by myself during Mardi Gras. Do you know how many tourists turn up dead or don’t turn up at all during Mardi Gras? One is too many so I am taking my girls with me.

Yeah, I know the heifers complain a lot but they know the rule. I don’t get but one good vacation a year. If you mess it up by complaining then you have to reimburse me for my vacation. Think I am playing and get left out a couple trips and learn.

They adhere to this rule. That’s the good thing about old friends. Most of the kinks are already worked out of the relationship and we still like each other.

New friends are great, too. Hellokittyslut and I seem to have quite a few things in common. I hope one day we can get together for drinks or dinner but it’s gonna be a minute. Gotta kick the tires and just check her out. Make sure I feel good about her.

Hard for me to trust meeting people online. Just never know about people online until you look in their eyes and can be sure. *shrug* Or maybe that’s just me.

I know, meet in a public place. Do you have any idea how many people have gone missing from a public place? So she gonna have to give me a minute. I got friend and family maintenance to do for the next few weeks anyway.

Oh, by the by, I haven’t seen my neighbor’s girlfriend since we all got dug out LMAO! Damn. And that’s all I need to say about that.

Well, I got a few more things to update but I think this is enough for now.

*tips wine glass at monitor*

Sour Grapes

*sits up from banging forehead against desk*

I miss My Obsession.

It's been a week to the day since we said goodbye and I still miss him as much now as I did last week.  What the...?

The voices in my head are not happy with me at all.  Aye!

I keep trying to rationalize these thoughts away.  This is, afterall, my busy time of the year.  I'll be swamped until at least May.  I really have no time to dedicate to My Obsession anyway.

I miss My Obsession anyway.

I've got so much work to do.  Not to mention my friends seem to really want to hang out at each other's homes and cook and laugh and just exhale.

I still miss My Obsession.

My family has DRAMA!  I keep waiting to see the news trucks outside my niece's home.  I really need to focus on family.  Really.  I do.

I. MISS. MY. OBSESSION.

Ugh!

I'm gonna go bang my head against a wall now.

So this is how it really ends.

I knew no good could come of this and I was right. I hate being right this time. I was really enjoying My Obsession. I really really was.

So, this is what happened.

It was snowing up a storm in my part of the world.

We chatted part of the morning and some of the afternoon but the servers were slow. I imagine a lot of snowed in folk were online slowing things down.

We recently started IMing. I had an old email account with the same domain as his. I should have gotten a new one. I just didn’t want to have to keep up with yet one more account. I should have gotten a new one. I’ve had that account since 2000. A time when I was very carefree and didn’t think I needed to hide my identity. I sent him an email from that account and up popped my real name.

Damn.

That is all.

He looked me up online to see if he could find a picture and of course came across all my vital information.

All I wanna know is why couldn’t he just wait? Yeah. I inadvertently sent him my name. But I believe he knew that. Why couldn’t he just wait?

He let me know what he had done and what he had found and apologized but…

Why couldn’t he just wait?

I don’t even wanna talk to him anymore.

I don’t even know how long I’ll keep blogging. He just took away my feeling of empowerment.

*SIGH*

Why couldn’t he just wait?

I feel so very sad.

No good can come from this

This will be short and quick.

No good can come from this. I am having way too much fun with My Obsession. Therefore, I know no good can come from this.

I know it. I can feel it all in my nether regions. *chuckle* I don't know who is going to fuk it up, me or him. But I know I can't possibly keep having this much fun.

If it's me...man oh man...I am gonna need prescription meds. But if its him...? *shrug* I am a lot more forgiving of other people than I am myself.

*sigh*

Anyway, he is probably out of my league. Yeah, I know its sour grapes but thats how you make yourself feel better about missing out on good things. Right?

^^^^Sounds like I watched way too many afterschool specials. So glad they won't be punishing future generations with them.

I'm done for the moment.